I'm the queen of spouting off about how you measure behavior, not results on the scale. I know that our bodies do weird things, so if we have a bad scale week, it doesn't matter if we can say we made good decisions, ate healthy, and exercised. Eventually the scale will reflect that.
Someone hit me. That's annoying.
I'm down half a pound this week for a grand total of 18 pounds. 18 pounds in 10 weeks! That's great! That's better than I've ever done! But I was still totally bummed out by that number. All day Sunday I felt great--clothes were fitting better, when I glance down I see my boobs, not my stomach, etc. I'd been daydreaming all week about a big loss, one that would get me to a milestone. 20 pounds lost would be a good numerical milestone, and if I got to 21 pounds, that would be my first 10% lost.
Alas, it was not to be. Just a measly half pound, rounding out my total loss from 17.5 to 18. I know there were a few times this week when I didn't eat the very healthiest (see: Tuesday night pasta, Saturday night wine binge) but I also made some great choices. Last night we took our sister-in-law out for dinner to a local pub. Everyone else got burgers and fries, while I had grilled chicken with squash risotto and portabella mushrooms. Then we ordered dessert to share, and I had one teeny tiny spoonful. I was feeling so virtuous! And I need to hang on to that feeling, because I did make good decisions. And I did run 15 miles this week. If the scale feels like ignoring it, fine. I'll see what happens next week.
But that's the problem. Usually that attitude is great, but I know what's coming down the pike and that's why I'm terrified. This weekend we're going out of town for a cousin's wedding. Three days of eating out. Three days where I'll have to bow out of time with family I never see in order to do my workouts.
Maybe this paltry loss is a good thing. Maybe it will scare me into ordering house salads with no dressing all weekend. But is that really how I want to approach things? With fear and loathing?
Current weight: 193.5
Pounds to goal: 70.5